Twenty

So I sit here at my computer about two hours away from turning twenty and many things come to mind. Specifically how fast these past two decades have come.  I am just thankful for being alive it makes me so happy to have been well just living.  I just think back to the past years when I grew up never knowing from day one what type of man I was created to be. Striving always to win to be the best that I could but also being scared and timid. These past two decades have been full of mistakes and blessings but man how blessed I am to have met EVERYONE on my facebook (as cliche as that may be) but man every single friend going from elementary school (i still remember the third grade play, youth soccer with all the guys, field trips, handball battles, pokemon cards, and just growing up) to middle school (playing on the school team, the 8th grade lip sync, getting cool with DK, breaking out of my comfort zone, going to church for the first time) to high school (dumplings and samosas, to all the teachers, to leadership, to moving churches, to coaching soccer) finally to college (meeting the homies for the first time in the suite, the IV video where I found an awesome community, getting sick, anxiety attacks, God moving, newfound friendship). 

Events as the time where I got sent to the ER after a guy landed on me in soccer and missing my spinal cord by 4 inches and if he landed there I would have been paralyzed. To being so lonely at school having really no community until I was invited to CCIC and where I found acceptance. To me being scared of having jerks as suitemates or just guys who party and dislike me, but instead I found the best group of guys I could have ever lived with.  To playing music with a group of four guys in high school where I just had a great time just fooling around and having companionship.  To being lonely in middle school and just trying to fit in with the rest of crowd acting like everyone else when I realized that the guy next to me trying to get "cool" too would be my best friend.  To being timid, quiet, and nervous of meeting new people but putting on a mask in high school that showed the opposite so I could be the person I "wanted" to be. But then just receiving acceptance to be the quiet calm person I was created to be. And that people want to get to know me and that I am cool :).   

So many blessings but I think back to every single person, people all the way from elementary school, kasha, rosa, tyler brown, margaux, daniel and michael lu, jason yang, becky yen, hermes huang, kenta, matt whitehill, matt wilson, john adams, dylan gantely, max stager, kathy hu, ram sachs, DK and more.  

To middle school, justin bui, derek chen, andrew kahng, jiwan, omid, alex chieh, trevor, serena cheng, tim jon, conroy tam, bobby mclean, tal yogev, ben kohl, sameer tharakan, matt marshall, alice jih, kevin bernstein and more.

to high school and then onto college where so many people came into my life. Just a few names came to mind but man thank you whoever reads this for being a part of my life for a second, a minute, an hour, a day, a week, to a lifetime.  Man I love you guys and I am so happy to have met every single person. I am so happy to be blessed with such an awesome group of people to have traversed life with. You all changed me, molded me, shaped me, helped me, grounded me, taught me to fly, encouraged me, more than you will EVER know. Thank you Jesus for life to the fullest, thank you for love to the fullest, thank you for friendship to the fullest. I hope everyone has an awesome winter break continue to pursue friendship and companionship to the fullest you all have great futures in store I KNOW IT! It is going to be a great next twenty years and more :)